this cold that i'm having won't leave me. it likes me too much. i'm hoping that the herbs (whatever they may be) the chinese doctor gave me works because they're pretty expensive. i'm trying out eastern medicine for a change. please please make me a believer.

the other new thing i tried yesterday was acupuncture. good thing i don't have any needle aversion because one poke really hit a nerve my body jumped in place. it was an experience - a bit boring because after the needles were placed, there was 15 to 20 minutes i was trying to observe what has happening. boring as it was, i have to say it actually works. my lower back doesn't hurt as much but i'd need 3 to 4 more sessions.

when you're trying to figure out things, sometimes the answer actually comes staring back at you. this is a realization this morning - me, having been hung up with a certain someone now know its time to give up. i really can't do this again because a part of me keeps on dying everytime. a good friend is right, fairy tales don't happen, at least not for us.

looking at my calendar, november is b-u-s-y. i can't figure out where to squeeze in some christmas shopping. dang.

where's an "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" when you need one? i need one. like now.