need to find it back again

sometime when i moved to jt's group during the reorg a year and a half back, i somewhat slowed down a bit. the work was different, it did have its challenges but mostly after i've managed to reorganized everything it was smooth sailing from there. i had a lot of time on my hands and while i relished being able to breathe in nine years, it feels somehow that i lost some of the edge, and the drive for competition. i still do exceptionally well i suppose to have been handed a program manager job - and i look at it as a step-up since i seemingly now is at par with the other managers who got pm jobs as well. sometimes i miss working in the factory - the daily grind, the yosi breaks (i'm officially a year nicotine free, not that i've ever been addicted), the challenge of it all. it was stressful yes, but it did keep my brain on its toes. with this new job, i really need to find it again - the edge, the drive and commitment to succeed. the team who is working for me expects a lot from me, and while i know they seem cordial, i know there is still some doubt there. i have faith though and i know that that in itself is enough to weather me through.