December 08, 2009

life | letting go

events of the past few days made me feel like i'm riding a rollercoaster again.  its an emotional thrill and yet one that gets me spiraling between happy and sad.  one of the drawbacks of being an OC is that i tend to obsessively overanalyze things - even the mundane ones.  you don't realize it yet but you know you have to starting walking away.  i'm thankful that i have friends who bear with the constant whining, the same-old-stories and the drama.  having "real" friends is a blessing.  it helps get you through the day.

after 7 years of being a member, i finally decided to cancel my gym membership.  it did became a habit at some point but life gets in the way (or so that's my excuse) and i found excuses not to go.  kakapagod e (ROFL!).  seriously, i have a plan.  i always have a plan B except that i haven't put it into motion yet.  the good news at least for now is that i get 24K more money in 2010 (uhmm, make that 22K cause of some stupid rule).  that's one additional travel for me! yay!

its mom's bday today.  i think she's hitting the big 7-0.  one thing i am very thankful for is that at this age, mom is still very much active and strong.  i pray everyday for health and safety of my family.  i'm thankful for having a responsible mom, despite being overbearing sometimes, has single-handedly raised us.  having a dead-beat dad (there i said it) probably helped make me a better person (silver lining! LOL!).  family = not perfect.  i've dealt with it a long time ago.

all things considered, life is great.  now if only i could have you, life would be perfect.  maybe.


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11 comments:

Joseph Villarama said...

Ang kulit kulit kulit!! thought you've decided that you'll move on already!!?! okay take your timetime haha:P happy birthday to your mom! :D

jay santos said...

i did ... hahaha =)

Joseph Villarama said...

your last word - "maybe" contradicts your statement! :D

Joseph Villarama said...

Oh not unless it pertains to someone else!! haha Goodluck shoti! :D

jay santos said...

what i meant is that maybe life will be perfect if i got what i want. maybe because i'm not sure.

Ronald Ibay said...

Good luck bro. :)

Nabasa ko lang ito, but make sense. :D ....
One simple way to miracle-ize your life - REMEMBER to always be proactive - being for something attracts results that stregthen you...

jay santos said...

hey kuya ron, thanks ... that makes sense! =) i am blessed to have great friends like you! ingats.

Malou Marquez said...

hmm....'really hard to let go, am pretty sure of that. but take it as it is, sometimes it's best to have undergone things like that to help you be molded into that better and stronger a person. you can also take it this way....may kapalit naman na extra P22K next year yan, eh. hahaha!!!

oh well.....love & fortune....they really don't go hand in hand all the time, do they? either you have one of them or you don't....you'd be one of the luckiest persons in the world when you have both, ordinary if you don't. but just the same, life must go on! cheers to the new and happier year, kuya jay!!! =)

jay santos said...

in fairness ang haba ng reply mo ate malousky! thank you for taking the time to write your comment. i agree with what you are saying, i'm still thankful to have met so many people. and yes, i am trying to move on (you should too!). sabi ko nga di ba its hard to love someone who's in love with someone else! =) kaya ito, i'm just focusing on the future. =)

Malou Marquez said...

iniwasan ko na nga sabihin na i can relate, eh....'to naman, o. kaya napahaba ang reply ko, di ba? hahaha!!

oh well....future na lang ang tingnan at i-focus.....past is past. yun lang. =)

see you soon!

jay santos said...

hahaha o di ba nakaka-relate ka sa mga drama posts ko ... oks lang yan, 2010 will be a great year for us! hahaha