December 13, 2006

is there really?

the current family problems have been taking more of me than i will ever admit to anyone. i have to show strength and resolve in front of everybody because being fragile and emotional doesn't help during these times. the hospital bill is actually bigger than what we expected, i guess it will run into something like 450k (hopefully that's the ceiling). yesterday was the first time i've had to use my credit card and charge 150k for deposit. i thought "sayang ang points" so i decided to use VISA instead. i don't really think any of the 150k is going to come back after everything has settled down. its not a case of "easy come, easy goes" because i worked for that, and i consciously made it a point to put money in my savings account every payday. i'm glad though that i am able to help during these crucial times. a lot of people have told me that i will earn that back and i know i will. hopefully what they say is true also that we all will be rewarded for all our sacrifices. God has been good during the past years such that he allowed us to be able to prepare for these tests today.

if not for these recent events, i would have enough money to be make my planned purchases push through - i wanted to buy a new gas range, a new washing machine, a new radio/speakers for my car, get my lynx repainted, fix stuff that needs fixing on the lynx ... these would have been easy decisions to make, and while i'm not saying that i am destitute now, recent events begs our family to be prudent with our spendings.

its 12 days before christmas, i honestly don't feel that christmassy these days.

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