setting the record straight

something funny happened yesterday involving momsie & spongebob. here is how the conversation went (based from momsie's gleeful storytelling) and how i imagined it in my head :

spongebob : how are you? how are the IE's na?
momsie : ok naman ..... (details lost in the muddy rudders of my head)
spongebob : e si jay kamusta naman, galit pa ba sya sa akin?
momsie : i think hanggang mamatay na si jay e galit sya sa iyo! (to this effect)
spongebob : bakit naman? ano ba ang ginawa ko?

for the record, yes i do DISLIKE her very much and i will tell you why. here are the few obvious reasons :

(a) during the whole ATM disolution phase and we were rocking in limbo as to where we will be moving to, she was working behind our backs to bring us back to factory with no positions defined in her organization; when i say behind our backs, she was conspiring & kissing hello kitty's ass to make this happen; i heard that hello kitty even had our file and it was obvious he was reviewing our credentials.

(b) heard that she was also planning to get my (& raf's) cubicle even after she has moved to manufacturing

so you may be wondering what the big deal was - well, her greatest crime is really a betrayal of trust. fcuk, i supported her when she was the manager of the group, and i did so even after i have moved full-time into an ATM role. i gave her advice (whether solicited or unsolicited) and asked people to give her the "benefit of the doubt." i told friends who were complaining about her to "try to see things from her perspective" and maybe "she has her reasons." shit, i did all that because i wanted to be impartial, more manager-like and wanted to see the good in people.

so what is the big deal about (a)? one, for a time it limited our hold on our careers so much that for a while, everyone in our group was lost on what will be life after ATM. popsie and i were the only one's who did not go back to the factory. popsie for obvious reasons and me because i managed to set a strong network that they managed to justify my release. there were a lot of 'casualties' during the transition. the casualties were never really momsie's fault - its hers. momsie need to clean up her trash and there are so many. she's not really the brilliant org developer i saw her during the start. that was superficial. she betrayed the trust that i accorded to her and for that i will not so kindly forgive her.

on (b), well what the hell does she want with my cubicle? why does she need a cube in the first place, kala ko ba dapat sa line sya? hello, i'm not moving - And I really haven't! I earned that cubicle and i worked for it. I never kissed ass during my 8+ years stay in intel. Kahit the positions & promotions, i got those with my contributions & because i was fit for the job. When i got promoted in ATM because i got the ATM IE Test Operations Mgr role under Lea, i was hired without Lea's say or influence - she was not even part of the interviewing panel. So i got that with a clean conscience.

I'm sure this girl is just jealous. Hello, hindi nakakabili ng talent no! dini-develop yan and probably the old adage "old dogs can't learn new tricks" apply to her. I realized after that tama, trust has to be earned. It shouldn't be given and that you should trust yung people who you really know. I should have trusted my instincts about her - something was definitely wrong because for once i wanted to see the good in people. "Leopards don't change their spots. Zebra's will always have stripes. And two-headed snakes abound more than we realize it."

so there, to set the record straight.