so this is what limbo feels like

there's still no certainty about the current state of the big blue ...i think its mostly certain that there's a new building in sight but so far the only certainty in terms of headcount reduction is teh first wave for the factory by end of this year. after an hour of chatting with our manager this morning, from her perspective, it seems that "our" job is technically secure even if we are "regional" positions. this should be good, make that great, news if we were actually looking at staying. but the remaining pinoys in my group is a 25 year veteran who is all but ready to reap her millions, another who has plans of pursuing other options and i, who is but ready to move into a different industry. the only consolation i here is that our manager seems to be supportive of what we want (at least that's how it seems today). i'm kind of waiting to receive a package and while there have been a number of calls for job openings to which i've all indicated "i'm looking (for a job)" there really is no certainty of moving out until after i'm certain of getting the package. the additional responsibilities that i've inherited from a resigned colleague most certainly makes me busy these days. its downright tactical which can be exhilirating except that they're all issues (problems in semicon speak) that needs to be taken cared of.

i should be happy i have a very flexible job - and i am grateful don't get me wrong. i earn decently. the only thing i am wanting right now is the thrill into moving into uncharted territory - that should scare me but it really doesn't. almost 11 years in the semicon is a long time it makes me feel ancient. the thrill and the challenge a new industry and company poses makes me giddy and adrenalin all but shoots through my veins at the thought of it. i should be careful what i wish for but this lull career-wise is killing me.

this is what steady feels like, when you're not moving forward and you're not moving back - a limbo of sorts. well i should just make the most of it, take the time to pursue other interests like this photography thing, and hopefully soon my culinary obsession.