i woke up this morning and realized that the primary reason i am working is not solely for myself but for my nephew. the desire to be able to provide him with a better, more stable future is what the whole point of amassing what little fortune i can stow from my monthly salary. of course, i don't want to say i am not planning on buying a place to stay and my dream SUV on the side. so there, i have reasons why i should work harder, not solely for myself, but for my nephew, who i love so much.
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i drove to work this morning in a bizarre but extremely calm state. i was looking outside while driving and it was like the world was moving quietly, serenely and so slowly. i felt like i was in some kind of time space warp and life was just passing by. i realized i always felt like this lately driving to cavite - maybe its a sign? of what, i can't tell right now.
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driving to cavite is awfully lonely. it was much easier going to cavite before when abet rode with me because i would be forced to wake up on time to be able to meet up with him. sure, he'd much sooner snooze than chat with me, but it was comforting at least to drive with someone (even if they were sleeping) than to drive alone. going home was actually better, since we have time to talk about how the day went, talk about non-sense stuff and just plainly have conversation to pass time. now, going to & fro, there's just an endless silence that sometimes is hard to endure.
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here we are again. one more day to weather. one more day wishing things will be better. i still feel there's something great coming soon --- so i will wait patiently.
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