mom texted yesterday that they my sister was going to get confined to the hospital since she hasn't been feeling well since last week. i dunno why she hasn't prioritized getting checked and finding out what's wrong with her in the first place. i guess we all have that inate fear about potentially knowing that there might be something wrong with us. its the emotional agony that tend to kill us first. despite being dead tired from going to the gym, i had to drive mom back to the hospital that night since someone needed to stay with my sister. i was pretty beat when i got back home knowing i still had to work on a presentation for my 6am meeting. sleep has been good & bad since i got back from the states. there have been times when waking up early after midnight proved helpful finishing up work or school stuff but lately the waking & sleeping for 30 more minutes routine has been agonizing.
dad chose to leave (the lousy timing) around 6am as i logged in to my meeting. my blacksheep brother (BSB) fortunately took care of my nephew while i chaired my meeting. (sidelog : for somebody who doesn't have a job, i wonder where he gets his money to go out). i told my manager i had to take the rest of the day off explaining my situation. i was preparing jacob's stuff when i realized he didn't have any clean milk bottles & water left. i had to clean his bottles and boil him water - it wasn't as easy as i thought it was, even preparing stuff to put on his bag. i can just imagine how exhausting it must be to come from work and have to attend to this stuff nightly. it wasn't hard at bath time since jacob loves getting cleaned up - and i've been giving him baths a number of times already. driving wasn't difficult also since jacob knows his place and how to behave inside a moving car already - the car being automatic is a plus though.
we stayed for a couple of hours at the hospital where my nephew was his "super gulo" self. i wish i had the same energy but i was exhausted & sleepy. i drove mom to her former office and the bank to get some money for the hospital. jacob was fast asleep when we got home and i fell asleep soon after. the good thing about my nephew is that he can be real independent seeing him chowing down on his mcdonalds chicken & rice while watching little einsteins on tv. he got that from the ref all by himself. i had to clean his bottles and prepare his water again - then had to clean him up for bedtime. i have to say doing these isn't easy - i'm starting to wish we had a helper right now. i love kids though - and this kid being my nephew, makes me love him ten times over.
i realize being a parent is a lot of hard work. and sacrifices. its no walk in the park. at the end of the day though, seeing their lovely, angelic faces can be extremely gratifying. that should be enough to get me through the night with a smile.
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