can you feel the gloom? i sure can.
walking along the halls of the office, i can't help but feel that something was lacking. i used to enjoy walking along these aisles for so many years, being excited that i was working for a multinational, billion-dollar company. i was probably young, naive & optimistic but that time, getting in was like winning the lottery. the last nine years was a journey, an adventure and was one of the best times to meeting truly remarkable people both here & abroad. everyday was something to look forward - and while we were tempted to give up at times, the work challenged us to be more than who we are. sure, there were the ocassional rants about pay, about how much work, about how sleepless nights sucked but we managed to get through it. the pressure and the stress forced us to turn to the ocassional alcohol, to smoking (which i've kicked off already) and to weekly gimiks. those were the days.
its remarkable how much things have changed during the past months. that while people have come and go, it felt like our "family" was going to survive the changing memberships. sadly, the happy times are over. we don't even go out anymore - everyone seems busy with their own lives, and others probably just found other people to hang out with. one by one, people are leaving and i can already see who will be left after everyone has packed up. i guess its just a matter of time for people to start making something out of their lives - to figure out what they want, go for it and pray to God they make the right decisions. the only thing i feel right now about people leaving is that nagging feeling whether our friendship survives. some may. others - i don't think so. i can already feel people drifting farther & farther apart.
its just time to part ways, i guess. and like always, life goes on.
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