considerations ...

the thing about having to make decisions is that its hard when you have a lot of factors to consider. i've been quite open to a few close friends about this whole adventure that i decided to take a few months back and today was no different. there is just comfort in being to hear what they have to say - like taking all the variables and inputs before making any calculations. i was beset the whole day on what's the best way to make a decision that i decided to invite car & bel and take solace in prayer - and what better way to do that than go visit the chapel where the pink sisters pray. yes, i find peace in prayer and i (and my family) went to this chapel a couple of times during the trying times. if there was a way to make a sound decision, this was it for me.

i realized talking to friends that what is being offered is quite good. doing the math, its a very good offer if i was single or if my family would be with me in SG. having to support them in manila and having to live independently will mean the expenses sort of doubles. that puts quite a big dent on "supposed" savings. peso per peso, at the same salary, it definitely is much more advantageous to stay in the country.

the other more major factor is the thought of not seeing and being with my nephew feels unbearable. if going there is a sure way to provide him with a secure future, that is the sacrifice to make. its not me trying to be a hero, its me accepting the responsibility that we owe it to him to have a future. i told him last night i was going to ride the airplane and will be away from home and he hugged me and told me "i want you to stay here, uncle!" what can you say to that? and more importantly, how will you feel about that?

i am praying deeply for the local company i am interested in to make an offer that i can compare to. this is definitely going to be something that will occupy my head at least for the next couple of weeks. foregoing this opportunity is an option definitely. take a chance and wait for the rr/j to make an offer or if that doesn't work out, continue to look for other prospects and risk getting a similar salary (which probably still isn't bad).

right now, i am praying for a sign.