first day back

the trip to cavite was quite quick today probably because a lot of the peeps are still in holiday limbo. driving to the big blue is always tiring but i decided to start this year right and work from the office instead. the first few hours were spent catching up with folks i haven't seen in a while - its always nice to chit-chat but having been away for quite a time, there are a lot of things to catch up. incidentally, today was also ice, agnes & cherry's day to pack the last pieces of their personal stuff. it feels surreal that these people i've worked with for the past 10 years are leaving - all at the same time. while unconfirmed, it feels like its just a matter of time before what we've always speculated will become reality. a lot of people i've worked have bailed out or are starting to. ten years with this company is indeed a long time - i can't even believe i've lasted that long. in a way i'd have to say that despite the pressures and the hard work, i really did genuinely enjoyed the first 8 years of my work. The last two - despite the multitude of travels, there's just no sugarcoating when you get shortchanged. i should have zigged when i zagged - i should have paid attention to the signs, heeded the warnings of my peers - but i wanted to believe people are inherently good. got burned once, got burned twice. hopefully, the "it comes in three's" doesn't apply here. i used to have really good instincts, pretty much able to size up people after a few conversations but there are people more adept at hiding their deviousness. one things for sure though, there's karma so i won't wish for bad things to happen because the universe has a way of leveling the playing field.

we had lunch/despedida sorta for ice, agnes and cherry. i still can't believe i won't be seeing any of them next week or when i come back from my trip. been hanging out with ice for like the longest time and not being able to see and chat with him is truly a sad thing.

its funny but in my head, i've sort of been rehearsing when the time comes for me to make my grand exit. i haven't figured out what kind of fancy e-mail i should write. i see all this in my head, clear as day. its just a matter of time i know, but i know in my heart - that time is coming. and its coming soon.