September 19, 2006

a place of dwindling fun

the one thing i realized going to the cavite office is how much people have changed over the past years - literally and emotionally. a number of the people i started work with nine years ago have moved on outside the country or some to pursue other opportunities. while losing them has been difficult, meeting new faces have been a blessing as well. despite the daily grind, being with friends was something to look forward to. i looked forward to spending time with them. sure, there were times it was tempting to pack up, complain how much work needed to be done and feel under-compensated for it, but i knew from the start i was made for this job - so i stuck with it. in a way, nine years after i feel rewarded and the investments in relationship i made somehow made it possible. the office today looks and feels different - i sometimes feel like i don't know anybody there anymore ('course except for a few folks) what with the new folks and groups and people having different priorities now. we don't go out to the occasional friday movie & coffee, or the "kapihan" sessions, or the "wala-lang, hang-out lang" anymore. i do miss the old days. its not that fun anymore, and most of the time, i feel like going to cavite is a chore so i don't bother anymore. of course there are people there i miss hanging out with, but i get to hangout with them weekends sometimes. with my new role and the need to have more US contact time, i'll be pulling my work hours so going to cavite is no longer a requirement.

at times i wish i had a time machine - and i can go back to when it used to be more fun ... with some of the few fun people from the present.

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