small joys for a child

i was planning on going to the cavite office thursday but that got sidetracked since i had to stay home to watch my nephew since my sister had two business meetings and mom had to go to a lunch affair. and since i was the only one who had the most flexible work schedule these days, i elected to stay home. at around 11am, i decided to break for an early lunch and took my nephew to mcdonald's to have lunch. its easier to bring jacob around places now that he's three since he's much more independent and behaves himself pretty well. i ordered for him a chicken mcdo happy meal and some iced tea while i got a two-piece chicken meal for myself. yes i am eating again, while i try to hold off the carbs, i do eat some nowadays - no more dizzy spells lately. while i had to slice the chicken into smaller pieces, it wasn't hard to feed jacob since he loves to eat by himself - and yes, it is kind of messy. after lunch, i brought him to the store playground where he climbed inside the big, plastic playhouse and delightfully used the big slide. it was fun to just stand there and watch him play on the slide and how nice to hear him scream in excitement everytime he slides down. this is what's great about being a kid - no worries, no problems - just a whole lot of playtime. it makes me jealous how despite a repetitious activity, i see genuine happiness and joy in my nephew's eyes.

sometimes it makes me want for an easier life right now - the kind that is free from too much complication and too much heartache - not a care in the world. but i can't be like that - not right now. these small joys, its not hard to figure them out now - its not so hard to smile or laugh these days because happiness is in me. and i have chosen to be happy.