the beginning of the end

reading through all the posts of late, i couldn't help but wonder if the events during the past few weeks is the beginning of the end? posts are littered with talks of moving jobs and migrating to other countries that it feels disconcerting sometimes that i may not be planning what's ahead seriously. i've been contemplating, like everybody else, what the future holds for me and probably how uncertain it seems right now. in a way, no matter how tumultuous the times are, i remain optimistic of what the future holds for me. my boss told me i was always the "optimistic one" - but will being overly paranoid do me any good today? i don't think so - i remain optimistic but "cautious" meaning that while i continuously hope for the best, my head also runs alternative scenarios the same time.

i guess it was too much to hope that the people i have grown accustomed to will always be here. the sad reality is that the world will keep on turning no matter how hard we try to stay where we are - people come & people go (even the best of our friends), love fades and life still goes on. when i was working back at bench before, i used to think it was such a perfect job for me - socially rewarding (celebrities, models, events), paid handsomely and i love the "people" i was working with. a year and 9 months later, i made a big decision and moved out. i knew that i was never going to see some of the people i worked with but i jumped ship nonetheless. i can tell that pretty soon, friends at work are going to move on and when that time comes, it will indeed be a sad day.

but hey, until that day comes, better enjoy every minute i spend with them.